Covid-19: What I’m doing to reign in anxiety

Yesterday Amanda’s college bestie, an intelligent and wonderfully warm man, kindly checked in on me. Our exchange inspired me. He said that he only reads 6 articles/listens to the news twice each week. Because he works in a hospital, where he is sufficiently briefed, the rest I assume is the product of extraordinary self-restraint. I admitted that I spent too much time in quiet panic, gleaming information I don’t retain (ever-changing numbers and projections, shifting guidelines and opinions, & many more!), but that only serve to intensify my anxiety and sense of doom.

He suggested that I limit myself to catching up twice a week for one hour max each time. He was very supportive and optimistic, which gradually led to some gears turning for me. At first, I felt anxious about giving up so much of what took up so much of my mind of late. Then, I grew anxious about how to adhere to a limit, and how to use my limited time well. Finally, I decided I would devote each reading session I allow myself to the task of populating a list. The list comprises of mostly companies, but also some individuals, who act in this time of crisis, for the greater good, as well as those who act greedily for selfish gains.

With the list on hand, I no longer obsessively follow case trackers and read into “off” commentary. Instead I have a simple objective: to gather relevant data. Here I took inspiration from the time Mini and I talked over ideas for posts. I’d suggested she write about her shopping hauls, something I gave up due to drastically cutting down shopping. I had the idea that she could reverse the process, and use the hypothetical blog post to evaluate items on her wishlist. I put it to her as: “if you don’t even want to write about it, then do you really want buy it?” Today, that thinking served me well: I stopped reading articles I’m unwilling to annotate.

I put up the list. It’s rough & simple, and to keep things uncluttered I did not cite sources, as a quick Google search would furnish the relevant links. I’ll keep adding to it, and I welcome additions or corrections as is fit.

The list and this post are also inspired by Mr. Roger’s (mother’s!) famous lines:

“…because if you look for the helpers, you’ll always find that there’s hope.”

Want more ways to help?

Make Homemade Face Masks (idea and link courtesy of my cousin Corinne!)

Scientists Beat Covid-19 by Playing Puzzle Games

Something different?

Transcribe Handwritten Rainfall Records

Categorize & Transcribe for the National Archives

Fix Computer-Generated Transcripts for the American Archive of Public Broadcasting

Help Project Gutenberg Convert Public Domain Books

Is transcription not for you? Check out more projects on Zooniverse!

Be safe and stay healthy!

I did it! I organized my arts and crafts supplies!

It only took almost a year (see: I’m Trying! — to organize my arts and crafts supplies dated, embarrassingly, 04/19/19) and the onset of self-quarantine due to a global pandemic for me to finish organizing my arts and crafts cabinets in the basement.

always start with everything out, how else can we immediately sink into deep regret and self doubt?

 

Then I sorted and labelled everything

 

line the boxes up by weight, lightest going to top rows

 

at last, everybody back in

Here’s my key for where things go:

  1. top shelf/bottom shelf: empty, reserve for overflow
  2. lego build booklets, sorting trays/legos
  3. holiday decor/photo organizers, picture frames
  4. plarn boxes * 2/”gift wrapping” box, “ropes, tapes, and wires” box
  5. nail art supplies/board games
  6. nail art supplies/board games, puzzles
  7. canvases, coin sorter, sidewalk chalks/paper cutter, rubber mat, folding bed tray
  8. “fabric crafts” box, “pens, markers, and scraps” box/fabric boxes * 2
  9. puzzles/used journals
  10. puzzles/paper craft supplies
  11. paint supplies, easel/wedding presents
  12. fabrics boxes * 2/misc craft supplies boxes * 2

That’s all! Now looking forward to all the days of staying home and getting to play with these. Be safe, everyone!

I want to talk about Dr. Li Wenliang (李文亮)

First, a little background:

 

On December 30, 2019, Dr. Li Wenliang messaged his classmates alerting them to what he referred to as “confirmed diagnoses of 7 cases of SARS.” It was not yet known that the cases Dr. Li observed were of a new disease. In subsequent messages, Dr. Li explained that the virus was confirmed to be in the family of coronaviruses (like the virus that caused the 2002-2004 SARS outbreak), but the specific strain was not yet typed.

The new disease, Covid-19, is caused by the virus dubbed SARS-CoV-2. SARS-CoV-2 is so named as it is related to SARS-CoV, the virus that cause SARS. SARS-CoV-2 is the rye dough SARS-CoV the sourdough. Covid-19 is the rye bread to SARS the sourdough bread.

On January 3rd, 2020, the CCP arrested and reprimanded Dr. Li Wenliang and 7 others.

On January 8th, Dr. Li contracted Covid-19 from a patient he treated.

On February 7th,  Dr. Li died from Covid-19. He was mourned and praised by the overwhelming majority of Chinese citizens, who did not agree with the official reprimand. They took to the web to vocalize their wish for justice for him.

Thanks to the outcry, the National Supervisory Commission launched an investigation. On Thursday, March 19th, the investigation closed, concluding that the case was improperly handled. In an extremely rare move, Police of Wuhan City apologized to Dr. Li’s family and withdrew the reprimand letter they issued him.

 

Now, a few things I want to note:

 

In the group chat on 12/31/2019, a colleague cautioned Dr. Li against his notice, stating that such alarm could cause the whole group to be censored. Dr. Li replied by asking the group not to spread the information further, but simply caution family and relatives.

Dr. Li’s official reprimand letter specifically cited his language that referred to the new outbreak as confirmed cases of SARS as “unlawful behavior.”

Yet, when asked to comment for the article published on 01/31/2020, Zeng Guang, lead epidemiologist at the Chinese CDC praised the early whistle-blowers, Dr. Li among them, for their vigilance (by then Wuhan had already locked down for over a week, a move that saved countless lives). At the same time, the Chinese government was censoring comments online with regards to the incident. The extensive social media scrubbing meant the removal of countless mentions of the new disease.

Lastly, the fact that the Chinese government launched a formal investigation, concluding with clearing Dr. Li’s name posthumously, is tremendous. I believe this was the direct doing of the Chinese people speaking out for his honor and his sacrifice.

 

I wanted to note the above because: 

 

By the rule of the Chinese government, surveillance of civilians is a fact of everyday life. I personally believe that nothing over the internet enjoys complete privacy, and is subject to some form of data tracking, as in the case from espionage to targeted ads. But that’s a topic for another day.

I believe the Chinese government moved swiftly (5 days, from 12/30/2019 to 01/03/2020) to reprimand Dr. Li because he said the cases he observed were confirmed diagnoses of SARS. I think his use of the word SARS also prompted his colleague to caution him, and is why he clarified that the culprit virus belongs to the same family as the virus that causes SARS.

I think this is significant because during its initial outbreak, SARS had a death rate of 9.5%, making it extremely fearsome. Additionally, while the Chinese government mobilized quickly to respond to the outbreak, officials also behaved deplorably with regards to transparency. They did not inform the World Health Organization of the outbreak until February 11, 2002, though they knew “cases had been detected in the province as far back as 16 November 2002.”

Fast forward to the onset of Covid-19, and the very mention of SARS makes tension. Dr. Li was brave enough to warn his fellow classmates, who are all healthcare professionals. (SARS disproportionately affected healthcare workers in 2002-2003, in addition to close contacts of patients, because its transmission required significant exposure to the virus).

By the next day, on 12/31/2019, WHO China country office learned of the cases. The next week, on 01/07/2020 Chinese researchers successfully isolated the virus. Five days later, 01/12/2020, China shared the genetic sequence of the novel coronavirus with the WHO. The Chinese government raced to provide public health organizations and researchers with science-based facts, all the while quashing rampant online discussions of the SARS-like disease in a misguided effort to quell panic. They got some things right, and some things wrong.

All of which leads to, how the significance of their formal apology to the widow and family of Dr. Li Wenliang, deserves serious recognition. Those saying, “too little, too late” because Dr. Li is no longer living, miss the point. It is important that he be remembered, and honored in his remembrance. It’s important that while heads of governments everywhere are not fond of admitting wrongdoing, in this instance the Chinese government did the right thing and apologized. It’s important that they formally withdrew his reprimand, so his place in official history is not tarnished. It’s important that the Chinese people spoke up, and the Chinese government acted on what they heard. No matter what, this is good news for doing the right thing, and I’m here for that.

An Introvert’s Guide to Staying the F#$% Home

We know now that in order not to overwhelm our healthcare system and hospitals, anyone who is able to, should do their best to self-quarantine. Staying at home as much as we can is a matter of social responsibility to the elderly and immunocompromised in our communities as well as our overworked and under-equipped healthcare providers.

That said, not everyone loves being at home as much as I do. So here are some ideas.

Things you can do everyday:

  1. read
  2. journal/write/blog (insert cheeky, winky face)
  3. craft/draw/paint
  4. jigsaw puzzles
  5. crosswords/sodoku/adult coloring books
  6. check your plants

    i finally potted my props that had already rooted in water, and started this batch of goji cuttings
  7. cook/bake/play “the pantry game” (instead of making unnecessary trips to the store or worse, engaging in hoarding/panic buying, try to get creative with ingredients you already have/pantry staples)
  8. check in on family and friends via calls, texts and social media
  9. catch up on shows/video games
  10. look for the good news amid the dual threat of inaction and panic– here are some I found:
    1. zoos are live streaming during quarantine
    2. digital giants actively combat spread of misinformation
    3. chef Jose Andres converting his temporarily shuttered restaurants into soup kitchens for the areas’ needy
    4. Jack Ma’s twitter that is regularly updated with donations his team has planned and deployed
  11. yoga/meditate/body weight fitness
  12. play with/train your pet

    If I’m being honest we went right to annoying them with costumes instead
  13. practice how to sew, take on “visible mending” projects for pieces with little holes or stains that you can cover up with beautiful embroidery
  14. play with makeup/nail polish
  15. disinfect high touch/use surfaces
  16. wash your hands
  17. complete you small home improvement items

One thing I have noticed changing in myself since going into voluntary semi-lockdown, is that I have an increase in energy levels. Luckily this is not restless, stir-crazy energy. It’s just that frequent errands, public outings and social interactions drained me, so now I have more energy from staying home extensively. For that reason I chose to cancel our weekly cleaning ahead of PA Governor Tom Wolf ordering all nonessential businesses to shutter temporarily. Instead I am cleaning one area of my home everyday, taking Saturday and Sunday off, and scheduling my areas such that all trash is out by the night before weekly trash collection. Our house is by no means so large that I couldn’t just clean it in one go, but I’m being more thorough while taking care not to feel overwhelmed. It’s working out for me, and, it’s a free workout!

That said, if you wanted to tackle deep cleaning your living space in a day or two, more power to ya! Here are some other projects:

  1. declutter
    1. your bookshelves
    2. closet(s)
    3. bathrooms
    4. kitchen
    5. hobby spaces

      The Boy is an electronics/gadgets and photography enthusiast and by going through his hobby collection, we’ve now set up a photo box to list redundancies for sale!
  2. Learn
    1. an instrument
    2. language
    3. hobby
  3. Challenge
    1. set a fitness goal: I’m working on improving my flexibility and being able to do a full side split by year end!
    2. set a reading goal: mine is 48 books in 2020
  4. Give
    1. if you are young and in good health (relatively low risk), you can sign up to run errands like shopping or dog walking for neighbors who are higher risk, check your local Facebook group or the app Next Door to connect with those in need
    2. or, volunteer from home! join coronavirusarmy.org
    3. as before, there is always Lifeline, so connect with your local crisis center to explore the possibility of volunteering from home

Stay well and we’ll see one another soon!

Stephen Colbert and Anderson Cooper on Grief

I’m staying in as much as possible to do my part in helping to curb the spread of Covid-19. Found a YouTube gem today. Little silver linings.