Realizing that today is the tomorrow

Chest aching

Nausea

Sleeplessness

The funny thing about

your heart breaking

is all the screen time

as you wait for the inevitable

and realize

today is already tomorrow

Yours Cheekily, W. H.

If I shortened
my definitely foreign perhaps difficult or even hostile
given name
to their inoffensive but not indifferent first letters

Could I have the audacity
to daydream of being likened to Auden

From Sea of Poppies by Amitav Ghosh

…for when a moment arrives that is so much feared and so long waited, it perforates the veil of everyday expectation in such a way as to reveal the prodigious darkness of the unknown.

How to Survive, Week 3

Falter

The halting, arresting, hitch

comes back

The nausea

comes back

Sleep continues to be

erratic

Moods too

despite what feels like

every effort

You’re not your best

Holding onto/Dreading

The past/future

Try to be present

Falter but try

You’re not worse

for trying

Nothing’s the worst

for trying

We would not be here

but for trying